7th date with Jim

The day after the concert. (July 20th).
I went to bed around 5:30 am and woke up at 11:45 am...yeah. I called Jim at noon and he asked me to come over and then we would go out to lunch. I got there around 1. He was burning cds and I sat in his lap. We kissed and cuddled, then we moved to the couch where we kissed and cuddles some more. Then we decided to order in instead of going out. we ended up getting pizza. after lunch, he led me into his bedroom. We made out on the bed for a long time. We would sometimes just cuddle and hold each other too. i was looking at his face and I said he looks like Kevin McDonald. He didn't know who that was but then he looked at my face carefully and he said because of my full lips and dark complexion, I look like...Angelina Jolie!!! I still can't get over that! Finally, I had to get going. He said he'd miss me as soon as I left and he didn't want me to leave. Later, I dreamed that he was kissing my neck...mmmm. :) This was a simple, yet very nice, date.

July 21st--He called me and we talked about pot pie. When we had to hang up, he said "I really wish you were here." Sighhhhhh....butterflies.

6th date with Jim

July 19th- Alkaline Trio concert!!!
First, I went to Jim's house. At first, I was a little quiet and unsure how to be around him. He had to go to his office to print out the directions. I looked at him and he hugged me. We went to his office and he sat down in front of his computer. I said "No chair for me?" and he let me sit in his lap! Then we got up and he kissed me. Then things were back to normal with us. We drove up to Orlando for the concert. I was totally gothed up! I had on a cute black top with a sparkly neck, black jeans, black shoes, a gold belt, silver bangles, a black beaded choker, and silver and black fairy earrings. Plus black eyeliner. I looked awesome! We got to the House of Blues and as we were entering the area, two guys asked if we were going to the concert. I guess I looked right! They asked if we had extra tickets...nope! And I wasn't about to give up mine 9see future blog for concert details). We walked around a bit then we went to the HOB restaurant. We had to wait and there were no chairs left, so Jim lifted me onto this big sideboard thing. He can lift me so easily...I love it! Then we got called in. They took our picture and then seated us. When our dinner was almost over, a man came by selling us our picture with wallets, keychains, and a magnet. Jim said ok. He would have given me the big one, but I wanted him to have it because I want him to think of me. I kept a wallet and a keychain. So then we went to the concert. It was packed, but we found a good spot. Jim kept kissing and cuddling me...it was nice. Then we went to the Virgin Megastore and Jim bought a Fred Astaire cd!!! LOL! We listened to it all the way back to his house. His favorite song is that Heaven one. So we got back to his place and made out on his bed for a long time. I've never made out on a bed before! His place is a pigsty, but he put a clean sheet on the bed just for me...isn't that sweet? I wish I could have spent the night with him. He said he was so sorry for making me hurt. Then he took me to the hotel. It was 5 in the morning! I was so tired, but I was glad I had asked Jim to go to the concert with me!

Stormy weather

Monday, July 14th
Jim called me at 8:30...the first thing he said was "You should find someone else." I know! What the fuck???? It turns out that he thought I gave him a hickey even after he asked me not to. Now, I'll tell you, I asked him when we were making out if he wanted one. He said no, so I gave him little kisses on the neck instead. I definitely DID NOT try to give him a hickey! But apparently he has some kind of welt on his neck which I don't think is a hickey at all, but some kind of insect bite! Anyway, I told him all of this and he repented. I wish I had handled myself better...I was crying so much...that shaking kind of crying where you can't talk. He said he didn't want to leave me until he was sure I'd be ok. He asked if I knew that he cared about me. I think he does. Here's my analysis of the situation: I think he's starting to have real feelings for me but he's afraid of rejection so he was rejecting me first, using the hickey as an excuse. I think he's just getting cold feet. Anyway, we're still on for the concert this weekend (if the stupid tickets ever get here!). He sent me an e-mail with *hugs* and an apology for Hickeygate. I'm forgiving him, but I was pretty formal and distant in my reply e-mail. We'll see where this goes.

Some inspiration to get me through this (thank you South Park!):
Goth Kid: I guess you can join up with us if you want.
Goth Kid 2: Yeah. We're gonna go to the graveyard and write poems about death and how pointless life is.
Butters: Uh, uhm no thanks. I love life.
Stan: Huh? But you just got dumped.
Butters: Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid.
Goth Kid 2: Yeah.
Stan: No. No, Butters, that doesn't sound stupid at all.
Butters: Well, thanks for offering to let me in your clique, guys, but, to be honest, I'd rather be a crying little pussy than a faggy Goth kid.
:)

5th date with Jim

I might flesh this out later if I'm in the mood.
July 13th, CityPlace
Dinner at City Cellar...I had this amazing farfalle.
We thought about a movie, but then...we took a carraige ride! It was so romantic and I loved it!
Then we walked around a while.
Then we left and found this empty parking lot to makeout in.
He told me I was beautiful and that anyone who didn't think so was not.
He told me that I was a receptacle that he could pour his love into.
Then we went back to the mall to wait for my parents.
We walked over to the movie theater and there was loud music coming out of this bar, Blue Martini so we checked it out. People were dancing so we danced for a while...it was fun.
He gave me a gift-black cherry scented candles. He said he got black cherry because he remembered that was my favorite juice.
Then we sat by the fountain...it was the best date of my life.

4th date with Jim

June 7th
We decided to go on a picnic. First we went to Whole Foods and picked up some lunch. Then we went to Sugar Sand Park and sat down on a bench. It would have been nicer to sit at a table but they were all reserved. We shared some green tes soy ice cream...it was ok. Jim said he wanted to make me-flavored ice cream because I taste sweeter than anything else! <3 <3
Then we took a walk on this nature trail. We sat on a bench and made out for a while. Then when we stood up, he picked me up and spun me around! It was so thrilling and fun and spontaneous! I loved it!!! Then we walked a little more and sat down again. He crossed his legs and accidentally kicked my leg. Then he said he was sorry and started kissing my leg where he had kicked it! then we went to see "The Happening" and we were cuddling and kissing in the movie theater...I always wanted to do that! Then we went to Whole Foods again so he could stock up on vegan supplies and then we went to TGIFriday's. Then we had a makeout session at my Lovers Lane. Then we walked around the parking lot a little, then sat on a bench and cuddled. It was nice.