So that's what it's like...

My 4th date with Glenn...it was amazing!!! Now I know how it feels to have a man, to have a boyfriend. We went to this place in West Palm. It's like an outdoor mall with a lot of high-end shops, restaurants, and a movie theatre. Anyway, we went to Barnes and Nobles and looked around there for a while. Then I suggested lunch and we went over to a nice restaurant and had these really huge salads. Then we were walking around the mall and he told me to let him know if I wanted to go into any of the shops. I said I didn't want to buy clothes today because I would have to try them on and I wouldn't make him sit through that. "Besides," I told him, "you never tell me I look nice anyway so I wouldn't know if what I was buying looked good on me." He replied by saying I looked really good (he's a little stingy on the compliments, but I'll train him) and then he pulled me to him and put his arm around my shoulders. I put my arm around his waist and from then on we kept walking that way. It felt good and sometimes he would squeeze my shoulder a little or pull me closer to him. I was melting and hoping he would kiss me. It felt really good knowing that other people knew we were a couple. Anyway, we walked around the whole place, just talking about stuff. There were a few really empty places and I kept hoping he'd kiss me. I didn't say anything though because I wanted him to make the first move. I'm glad I kept quiet. Finally we got to this really empty place by some railroad tracks. Then he looked at me, leaned towards me, and KISSED me! Again, tongues and lips and his arms around me, pulling me to him. Finally, we gently came apart. My heart was racing and my knees felt weak. I told him let's sit down somewhere. We went back to the main part of the mall but there wasn't anyplace private enough. I wouldn't have minded a public display of affection, but there were a lot of kids around and it wouldn't have been right. He suggested we go for a drive and find a park or something. I agreed and we left. When we were in the parking garage, I thought "Is this a mistake? Can I really trust this guy? Is he going to try something?" But it was the middle of the day and he was heading for public places so I felt ok about it. We drove for a while, just talking, but I know I was anticipating a makeout session. We finally found a place by a fishing bridge. We walked over and sat on this concrete edge with our legs dangling down over the water. It was really beautiful, the water and the trees. The afternoon sun was beaming through some clouds and reflecting in the water. We looked at each other, then he put his arms around me and we were kissing. Really kissing! He was pulling me so close and his hands were moving gently down my back and stroking my hair. He didn't try to touch me inappropriately or anything like that. We kissed for so long, it was really wet and there were sucking noises. It felt so good. I told him I though that was the longest kiss I had ever had. He said for him too. Then we just held each other. Then we made out again. We kept making out and just holding each other and looking out over the water. Finally, the bugs were atarting to get us so we decided to leave. He hugged me and I asked him if he liked me. He said he liked me very much and that I was an "interesting person". LOL...well, I'll take it. Then we went back to the mall and went to Cheesecake Factory (I know, but it was a different one this time! And my receipt came back with a $10 gift card). We had some spiked coffee and...I got carded! That was awesome...just a few days before my 30th (yikes! really???) birthday. Then we decided to leave and he said he'd take me home. In the car i asked why he decided to hook up with me in the first place. He said he had liked my profile and my pictures in the traditional outfit. I then asked him if he was dating anyone else and he said he wasn't. He told me about a female friend he has but insisted she's just a friend. I'm ok with that. So anyway, we get to my street and I tell him to pull over before we get to my house so he can kiss me goodnight. He did and we shared a very passionate kiss. I had my hands in his hair and on the back of his neck. When we finally came apart, he told me he was really glad we pulled over! When we got to my house, we said goodnight and I gave him a quick hug and a kiss. He told me he'd call me tomorrow and I really hope he does! Stay tuned for more...(I hope!)!

P.S.

I want Patrick Stump so bad! I want to just fuck his brains out! He is so hot and I just want him so much!
i wrote a song about him and about what happened at the concert. It's not finished yet, but here's the first part:

P.S.: Your Voice Is In My Head (and In My Heart)

I want your voice to be the one inside my head
I want you more than you will ever know
You’re singing these words and you’re singing to me
Your voice is more than I deserve
Whoa

Chorus (x2):

Sayin’ ‘I love you’ across a crowded room
I know you hear me ‘cause I hear you too
So clear
So clear

Super Soap '07

My fifth Super Soap Weekend...and only one autograph! But it's ok...it was Todd's autograph and...he recognized me! He actually remembered me from the year before! He's so gorgeous!!! And really nice too. I love Todd.

He kissed me!

My 3rd date with Glenn. Just when I thought our relationship wasn't going anywhere...he kissed me! And I mean KISSED!!! Tongues and lips...his face against mine. I could feel some of the stubble around his mouth. His tongue touched my teeth! I know that sounds gross but it happened. He was kissing me like he would never stop. I don't think he realized that I had never been kissed like that before. It lasted for so long. He kissed me 3 times but each kiss lasted forever and was...passionate. I have just been passionately kissed. I'm still trmbly inside. Then he put his arm around my shoulders and he was rubbing my arm gently. Then we held hands for a while. I can't wait to see him again!

Patrick Stump told me he loves me!

Yes, it's true. Patrick Stump told me he loves me. He confessed his love to me across a crowded room. Heavenly sighhhh... :)
Here's the scene: FOB concert, Miami, Halloween night. Pete was a Teletubby and Patrick was Willy Wonka but later he took off the top hat and put on his usual kind. He had on a suit with a ruffled shirt and rosy red circles painted on his cheeks. Adorable! I was on an upper level of the pit, it was on the same level as the stage, overlooking the rest of the pit. Anyway, I was at the front of this section, with a clear view of the stage...and of Patrick (hee hee). It was nearing the end of the concert. Pete was in the middle of the stage saying how this was going to be their last song. Patrick moved to the side of the stage so he was now directly in front of me. Everyone was looking at Pete, but I only had eyes for Patrick. I raised my hand in that familiar "I love you!" gesture. And Patrick...shot it right back at me! That's right, bitches! At me. And Patrick doesn't just gesture all the time the way some singers do. He's always just totally into the music. But he saw me...and answered my "I love you" with an "I love you" of his own...


Stay tuned...maybe I'll put up a set list if I feel like it (I know, I promised one for their last concert too).

I love you, Stumpy!!! <3 xoxoxxxx <-----guess what the extra x's are for! ;)