First (Skype) date with Q

I think q is really falling for me. We had a skype date last night, nov. 8th, and it was pretty cool. His life is pretty together. Plus he's pretty romantic! :)

Pros and Cons- Ben

Ben

Pros

1. Sweet
2. Funny
3. Chivalrous, a Gentleman
4. Romantic
5. Affectionate
6. Reliable and Steady
7. He's trying to fix things...because of me

Cons

1. IS NOT DIVORCED!!!
2. (Soon to be) Ex-wife still lives with him
3. Has a son
4. Poor
5. Has a (self-admitted) cluttered house
6. Drones on and on about his past events
7. Talks about exes too much

How I feel when I'm with him
Good Feelings, feelings I like
Sweet
Charmed
Good
Feminine
Beautiful
Loved
Excited and Nervous

Bad Feelings, feelings I don't like
Jealous
Annoyed
Bored
Like I'm waiting...waiting for him to get his shit together? I'm not sure...

Dates with Ben

Thursday, Oct.6-1st date- Carabbas and kissing by the fountain.
Oct.11- 2nd date- McDonald's and the beach and Starbucks
Oct.16- 3rd date- New Found Glory and late-night-after-concert cheeseburger at BK
Oct.22- 4th date- Dave and Buster's.  Oral at the park, almost got caught by a cop.  God saved us from being arrested.  Just 5 minutes earlier, his pants would have been down in the car.  15 minutes earlier my pants were down and he was on his knees...in the park!!!
Oct.27- 5th date- Thai restaurant and Cheesecake Factory
Nov.3- 6th date- The Promenade and Denny's.

Ok, Ben threw me a bombshell.  He's not divorced...yet. Grrrr!  I'm what's lighting a fire under his ass to force him to get his shit together.  I gave him a deadline: Dec. 1st.  That's the day I make a decision about what I want to do about our relationship.  I'd like to keep dating him...but I don't know.  But it's a good feeling having power.  I cried on the phone to him last night, when I was telling him about my deadline.  I make sure to always make everything about me: about my feelings and wants and needs.  I'm keeping the focus on me!